“Listen, I can hear the call
As I’m walking through the door.
I guess the time has come. And let’s be honest, it was long overdue, considering most of the closest friends I met on here have already left deviantART years
ago and don’t even log in anymore. I’ve stood much longer than many others on here, but I don’t quite see the point anymore.
The first step toward this decision was the sort of general hiatus I’ve had this year, with no picture taken for months courtesy of unnecessary negativity from an outside source. I consequently didn’t log in at all – and by the way, I want both to thank and apologise to everyone who wished me a happy birthday this year: I’m really thankful to all of you and sorry if it looked as if I ignored you completely. I just happened to read your comments over a month later and at that point it was sort of embarrassing to reply – sorry.
Anyhow, I’ve recently taken the final step towards leaving this community: if you go to my Facebook page, you’ll see works I haven’t published on here at all. Namely, it’s cosplay photographs which have more commercial than artistic value and serve as advertisement to find commissioned jobs, but the fact still remains that deviantART is no longer my all-comprehensive online archive. This is going to become more noticeable once I publish the bagillion cosplay photos I shot last Sunday: I don’t think I’ll be posting them on here – at least not all of them – for I see not point.
On top of that, I am not even socially active on here anymore. I honestly feel the community is dying out, which does not make me wish to see what’s going on. You may call me a vain and selfish bitch, but I am a human being and the less than mild response I got on such an important (to me) and technically challenging work as Furcifel
really brought me down and made me feel I was wasting my time in trying to connect with people on here. Especially added it to the lukewarm response to my Белое
and The Disappearance Of The Girl
projects, which were also very challenging both in a conceptual, technical and graphical way. And especially while I still get feedback on The Seven Deadly Sins: Lust
from 2007. This really makes me feel as if eight years of constant endeavour and artistic growth mean nothing against fucking eighteen-year-old me acting all slutty in gothic make up. Well, excuse me, this is not the kind of people I wish to reach with my art, because the big deal here ain’t that I’m pretty, the deal is I work my ass off to try and take better and better photographs with each new session or project.
Honestly, it’s not like I get any more serious feedback on Facebook, but for one thing it’s more active anyway, and for another all the "You look hot" comments seem less misplaced and annoying on the motherload of online superficiality than on a website I’ve taken for (read: deluded myself into thinking it was) a place for artistic expression and contemplation. That, and it helps me get some cash from commissions more than deviantART does. The pros and cons lean towards Facebook.
So, what does all of this mean? I’m not entirely sure, either. I don’t think I’m going to completely quit the website because it would be painful and, more importantly, Facebook’s photo quality sucks. I think I’ll post some of the important stuff on here too to provide a better quality back-up for those who want to see it, beside providing some photos an exhaustive commentary on my blog. I also think I’ll still check my deviation inbox to keep in touch with other artists’ works, because their art doesn’t deserve to be forgotten just because the website itself isn’t thrilling anymore. But don’t expect me to be particularly responsive to feedback, private messages and such, or publish photos regularly: browsing the website and especially uploading new content has become such a long, boring process it simply isn’t worth my time anymore.
Now, I know all of this might sound rude, disrespectful and downright ungrateful for those faithful few who still follow my work on here, give me feedback and satisfy my greatest urge when I create art, which is to reach out to people to share my inner world with. Truth be told, this post is entirely for you: it would be awful of me to just keep on fading away without giving as much as an explanation. It’s your support and warmth that has been keeping me motivated to pop in here for over a year now despite everything. I would really love to keep in touch, to keep reaching out at you with my works, which is why I formally invite you all to join my Facebook page and continue our exchange of art over there.
I really do hope to find you all in there. I was reluctant to just move my core social activity there because for years I didn’t like Facebook at all and joined it reluctantly, but now I find it quick and easy and I guess everyone and their sister has an account on there; all in all I can consider it the most universal place I can share my photos at. If you have questions, comments, critique, anything pertaining my photography you want to share with me, you’re more than welcome to join me there, where you have a 100% chance to get a reply much earlier than after a month.
Meanwhile, I would like to thank all of you for the enormous support you’ve showed me through all these years, especially those of you who cared to look beyond my face and see what ever simmered in my head and poured in my work. It’s to you I owe and promise to never give up and always try to get better. I really love you.